Floating in the summer sky,

Oh my good god.

2009-05-10T21:55:47Z

It's been a while, but I have a story to share and I'm going to share it.

I don't believe I ever told you about my character, Giovanni. He's my baby. He started out as a character I played in Morrowind, in which I gave him an EPIC story and all that. I then carried him to Oblivion, where more epicness occurred (though the story I set for him does deviate from the main quest of Oblivion quite a bit, and Shivering Isles happens first.) Through both Morrowind and Oblivion, one of the main points of his story is that he's served many a god, but will bow to none. I have also tried to place him into many other original stories, though none have yet to fit and I'm not sure that any ever will, but all of them has to go with rejecting some sort of god.
I have finally looked up what the name Giovanni means. Normally I don't select names without knowing the meanings, but Giovanni is a nice name and I finally decided to use it, meaning be damned. Here is my results: Giovanni is the Italian form of Iohannes. And what does Iohannes mean? God is gracious.

May all of you have a lovely day.

I did this thing for my film class...

2009-01-12T05:50:01Z

There was this thing where I had to analyze a movie, point out the hero's journey and all that, and I decided to focus on Anakin Skywalker as the hero. I thought I did a damn good job with it, so I'm posting it.

    The story of Anakin Skywalker is an interesting one to follow, as along the way, he fleshes out to become an extremely dynamic character. To follow it al the way through is to see all of the Star Wars movies through. Thus, this is more of a study on the series of movies, not just one in particular. For this story, it might help to start with the stereotypes:

Untested Hero- Anakin Skywalker. He starts as a slave, and unbeknownst to him, the Chosen One. He eventually lives up to this title.

Damsel in Distress- Padmé Amidala. When we first meet her, Qui-Gon Jinn and Obi-Wan Kenobi have to protect her. This follows through to having Anakin and Obi-Wan protecting her, and eventually Anakin takes up the task alone.

Wise and Helpful Guide- Obi-Wan Kenobi. Though it is Qui-Gon in the beginning, his untimely death forced Obi-Wan into this position prematurely. Though he is a good mentor, he is forced to grow up even quicker than other Jedi, and causes him to be less understanding of Anakin.

Messenger- Qui-Gon Jinn. He was the one to first spot Anakin for what he was-- Force-sensitive-- And again, as the chosen one. He was the one that freed him and offered to take him to Coruscant, to have him trained in the ways of the Jedi.

Threshold Guardians-

Shmi Skywalker (Anakin’s Mother): Though unintentionally, his mother was his main     reason to stay on Tatooine, his main reason to refuse his call. He’d miss her, if he     left her, and he had no way of knowing what may happen to her. He was afraid to     loose his mother, as any child would be.

The Jedi Council: At first, they try to prevent his training. They have many valid reasons,     that the boy is too old, that he’ll gain too much power and become a threat. Later,     they try to hold him back, saying that he isn’t ready, and ultimately denying him     the title of Jedi.

Obi-Wan: In Anakin’s eyes, his trusted friend and mentor betrayed him, too. The way     Anakin saw it, the man was trying to blind him from the possibilities, to stop him     from saving his wife. Obi-Wan had always been quick to hold him back, though it     was only for Anakin’s protection, though Anakin didn’t always see that.

Padmé: She was the one that prevented him from being a Jedi. Though she didn’t mean to     do it, or even know she was doing it, she was the one to turn him to the Dark Side.     The emotions she evoked from him by her love, fear and jealousy, were what did     made him chose the path he did.

Magic Talisman- Anakin’s magic talisman resides within-- It’s the midichlorians that give him his power, in the beginning. Without this power, he would have lived out his life as a slave on Tatooine. As Darth Vader, this is his suit. His suit is not only his life support system, it is his identity.

Hero’s Partner- This starts out as Qui-Gon Jinn, who guides and protects him. He passes this on to Obi-Wan when he dies, who carries out the title, along with being Anakin’s friend. It then shifts to Padmé Amidala, his secret lover and wife, and then to Senator Palpatine, who guides his hand as he becomes a Sith Lord.

Forces of Evil- Though there are many different faces on the outside, the main conflict is within Anakin. He is always at battle with himself, at fist he fights against his anger and aggression, and later with his conscious. But always, he fights with a deep-rooted fear of being left alone, and is willing to do anything to prevent such a thing form happening. For Obi-Wan, he gives up any chance at a normal life. For his mother, he directly disobeys orders at a last attempt to save her. For Padmé and the love that she openly shows him, he is willing to give up everything he knows. As a shell of his former self, to the Emperor (a risen-to-power Palpatine), he gives his service. All of this so that he isn’t alone, so tat he has someone to care for that will hopefully care for him and return.

    With an idea of the roles that everyone plays in mind, we can continue on to tell Anakin’s story. He goes through much, and right near the climax of it, he has a change of heart, which is what I believe makes it so interesting. He follows the hero’s journey while still deviating from the norm:

The Call to Adventure- Anakin’s call is when Qui-Gon arrives, needing a part for his ship. He feels a strong presence of the Force in Anakin, and decides to bet the ship for the Anakin’s freedom after he tests the boy’s midichlorians count, which is higher than any ever recorded. When he win’s Anakin’s freedom, he tells Anakin that he can become a great Jedi Knight.

Refusal of the Call- Anakin, moments before he’s about to leave with Qui-Gon, looks back. He thinks about leaving his mother, and decides he can’t do it. He tells her so, but she reassures him that she’ll be fine, and sends him on his way.

Passing the First Threshold- He takes his mother’s advice and goes, despite the fact that he’s afraid of leaving her.

Descent to the Underworld- When he stands before the Jedi Council with Qui-Gon Jinn, Anakin gets his first taste of things to come, though he doesn’t yet realize it.

Tests, Allies, Enemies- This would include Anakin’s training with Obi-Wan, his meeting up with Padmé again, and everything that leads up to the proposition that Palpatine presents.

Approach to the Inmost Cave- When Anakin begins having nightmares of Padmé’s demise, he makes a choice: He must do anything in his power to save her. When Palpatine offers him a way to save her, he is reluctant to accept, as it will end his life as a Jedi. He is now presented with a question: Can he go through with it?

Ordeal- When the Jedi Council realizes Palpatine’s intentions, they move to take action. Anakin chooses then to visit him, and makes his choice to join by striking down Mace Windu, the Jedi Master charged with taking down Palpatine.

Reward- The reward that Anakin chose was not the one he received. Instead of saving Padmé, he kills her. Not by choking her, as Palpatine later tells him, but by not being there for her when she’s in labor. Instead, he gets another reward-- He gets to leave his identity behind and become Darth Vader, a Sith Lord.

The Road Back- Anakin doesn’t begin his way back to normality for a long time. For many years, he lives as Darth Vader, as a Sith Lord serving the Emperor. What it took to take him back to normalcy was his son, Luke. Seeing his son set his conscious off again, and it made him feel something he hadn’t felt in a long time-- The need to do good.

Resurrection- This is where Darth Vader makes the transition back to Anakin Skywalker, and back to the Light Side, In Luke’s moment of need, when the Emperor strikes to kill, Anakin chooses again. This time, however, he chooses the way of the Jedi, and strikes down the Emperor. In striking down the Emperor, however, he plays the ultimate price-- His life. But he dies with a clear conscious, knowing that he did right, and fulfilled his destiny.

    This shows us that though Anakin Skywalker may not be conventional, he is a hero nevertheless. He has his destiny, and though in the middle of fulfilling it he makes a detour, he returns all the same.

So, I went to this workshop thing..

2009-01-08T02:14:25Z

It was for learning basic guitar maintenance. I learned things and all, yeah. But that isn't what I wanted to say. There was this guy that was teaching the thing, and his name was Tom. Now, take a look at my icon. Yeah, looked almost exactly like him, but a bit younger. It was weird.

I suppose it really is quite disturbing...

2009-01-04T09:20:13Z

So, I was surfing around the net, like usual, right? And I got to this page about the big deal with people identifying with the Jedi religion. Way I see it is, well, why not? It's just as valid as anything else. And I eventually found myself on the Jedi Church website [link]. And I'm just thinking that it's silly to base a religious belief off of Star Wars, awesome though it may be. Until I read up on the beliefs, that is. It was almost disturbing to find out that this is exactly what I believe... Though one could probably understand why I'm reluctant to identify as a Jedi. I mean, really. Even if what they're talking about is what I believe, and even what I practice, think about it- Nobody takes you seriously if you tell them you're a Jedi. It's the kind of thing a crazy bum would say. (But hey, I've met some pretty cool bums. There's this one guy, that I've come to call Frank, and he's alright. Until he tries to eat your friend's dog alive, that is, but that's another story.) But still, you shouldn't tell someone that fills a national survey thing out, "LOL, you may have put down Jedi, but that's bullshit," because telling someone that their beliefs are bullshit is just not cool, regardless of what they put down.

I've got to admit, though, it feels wonderful to have a name for my beliefs, even if it is a fictitious religion for a major franchise, and even if it will only ever be called this in my head.

Anyways, I should be asleep.

My 101

2009-01-02T10:29:17Z

I've surmised that I was supposed to post this yesterday, but this is the first time I've seen this, so I think that this can be excused?
My name is Sarah, I'm fifteen, and a freshman in high school. I will turn eighteen thirteen days before this is over (Yeah, now I'm only giving myself 1,000 days, but hey, I should have posted earlier. Starting as of right now, I will accomplish 101 things before September 29, 2011. Some of them will be little, some of them will be big, and some of them will be just silly. But all of them will be from the bottom of my heart.

My 101 Things:

Get my collective word count (blogs, stories, etc, that are typed up on the computer) up to... Let's say 300K? I have near four years to do this in, so I should be able to, even if I suck at getting my word count up.
Find lactose-free ice-cream.
Read Inkheart before the movie comes out, so that I don't feel guilty for watching the movie before reading the book.
Compose a song to play on my guitar.
Write a novel, one that in no way can be seen as fan fiction.
Write a fan fiction long enough to be seen as a novel, or enough fan fictions so that the word count is long enough (50K) to be considered a novel.
Deal with my anger issues.
Get a scholarship, so that I can go to the college of my choice.
Get published.
Remember that there is no try.
Take journalism classes.
Watch every episode of Scrubs, including season 8, and anything after, if it continues with the original cast.
Dance in the rain.
Smile whenever possible.
Make a new friend.
Forgive my dad.
Play through the main quest of Morrowind again.
Have a Star Wars themed party.
Do ten nice things for people. Do them anonymously.
Don't bottle up my emotions.
Complete a Scrubs fan fiction, one that is at least 10K.
Seriously consider a career in medicine. Stop beating around the bush, get out there and ask someone. Ooh, maybe I could work at a teaching hospital! Oh snap!
Also seriously consider being a teacher. (Lol, I'd likely teach history.)
Get over fear of needles, or cope as best as possible. It could be a problem. XD
Learn how to play backgammon.
Learn what backgammon is.
Get into better shape.
Try almost every new food that is offered to me, unless it's something like menudo, then I'm off the hook.
In that vein, try guacamole, no matter how gross it may look.
Learn to salsa dance.
Speaking along those lines, learn more about my various backgrounds. (Mexican, Irish, Scots-Irish, Dutch, German, etc.)
Make a functional super-straw. (A straw composed of several normal straws, so that it's very long. Name given by my brother.)
Use the word 'Pedosmile' in a sentence, excluding this one.
Learn to make an origami swan.
Bake a loaf of bread by myself.
Grow some sort of friut or vegetable growing plant.
Make something, mostly by myself, using said friut/vegetable, and eat some of it.
Visit a palm-reader.
Get better study habits and strategies.
Get better organized with school work.
Volunteer at MOSH. (Don't just apply for the internship, get it. )
Study the college algebra book I found at my dad's place.
Read All Creatures Great and Small.
Finish reading Catch-22.
Actually try and smile for the camera.
Go to the mall with Jessica when she gets back.
Get those mirrors out of my room.
Work on public speaking.
Get the 'games played' thing on Microsoft Solitare to say 5,000.
See the movie Talk Radio (1988).
Don't hold grudges.
Never turn down a high-five.
Complete a 1,000 piece puzzle.
Wake up to watch a sunset. (This means no staying up all night for this, and doing it on a day that I otherwise wouldn't have to do so.)
Document my completion of the 25 book challenge.
Write inspirational grafiti.
Sing in public.
Put up the cork board in my room.
Print out this list, put it up on the cork board, and cross off everything I've accomplished with many colors. Use tallies when necissary for counting things.
Go camping.
Learn the dance to Thriller.
Learn to meditate.
Learn to drive.
Get a haircut and get a real job, etc.
On a similar note, learn to play something by George Thorogood.
Go to a Star Wars convention.
Knit a scarf.
Crochet a scarf.
Buy a tobacco product because I can. (Don't plan on smoking/chewing it or anything, lol, but I feel like it.)
When I get said job, get hair dyed an unnatural color.
Co-author a comic book with a friend.
Finish reading Anne of Green Gables series.
Finish reading Little House on the Prarie series.
Visit a National Park.
Send a postcard.
Hug people more often.
Get more comfortable with physical contact.
Read Hitchhikers Guide to the Galaxy.
Learn to MLA format papers, and actually do it with all of them.
Go on a picnic.
Only miss school if absolutely necessary.
Cosplay as Anakin Skywalker at least once. (Outside a convention.)
Cosplay as a young Obi-Wan Kenobi at least once. (At a convention.)
Write a children's/young teen book. This can be combined with writing a novel.
Participate in a photoshoot. (Perhaps while cosplaying... :D)
Re-Watch all six Star Wars movies in a row.
Finish a Stephen King book.
Learn to be more paitent with people.
Watch Breakfast at Tiffany's.
Beachcomb for shells and things.
Finish a game of (oh god) Monopoly.
Go to a meeting at the local library.
Go to a workshop that isn't at the library.
Finish reading one of Shakespear's plays, on my own terms. (Meaning, not as a school assignment.)
Don't sweat the small things.
Narrate a day out loud, in third person.
Learn to play Lovers in Japan on the keyboard.
Make small goals to work up to the bigger goals.
Make all A's and B's.
Don't become depressed.
Blog about every single time I accomplish an event, if possible when or right after it happens. This excludes #1, where I will instead blog about a story or blog about blogging every once in a while, this also excludes #5, 6, & 84, which I will do the same for, #12, where I might blog about a few seperate episodes, and the ones that are 'take it as it comes' things.

I'm going to re-post this list to my journal, by the way.

Hey, guys.

2009-01-02T07:17:42Z

Not sure why I'm posting, as I really don't have anything important to talk about. Nobody ever reads my posts anymore, either, but I don't much mind that. I'm kind of peaceful right now. I should be asleep, but sleep comes hard these days. I haven't been depressed in a while, which is a good thing.
I'm working on a new Scrubs fanfiction right now. Been calling it 'My Cold Shower', but as it's a WIP that's subject to change. As of right now, I'm keeping info on it a secret.
I don't know what I'm trying to say, in posting here. I guess I just wish things could be peaceful like this more often, and while typing up a post here is an outlet for me, it's not like writing a story, where I have to live up to expectations.
I wish you all a Happy New Year.

Hey there.

2008-08-30T22:47:25Z

So, I spent all of yesterday in the ER. Yeah.
I was in pediatrics, so it wasn't as bad as it could be, but still. I didn't eat anything at all the whole time. We're still not quite sure what's wrong. I even had to get a CT scan, because of the headaches and dizziness. Everything turned out normal.
Oh, yeah, and I got a pelvic exam. Not looking forward to ever having to do that again.
We rented some movies afterwords. And I got a poster of the Joker, which is cool, and it fuels my obsession of Batman even more.
Oh, and my grandpa made banana bread, which is awesome.
Hopefully after this I'll be able to go to school regularly.

Hi, LiveJournal.

2008-08-29T04:16:54Z

Sorry I forgot about you for a while.
Anyways, I'm thinking of making a new account for just fanfiction, as I love to write it. I might even consider putting some original things up there, but I don't know yet.
Well, a lot of shit has gone down since I last posted. Two important things happened:
1) Got into the high school I wanted. One of the top arts schools in the United States.
2) Just a few days ago, started feeling really sick. My mom is going to take me to the doctors soon, and if they can't figure anything out, to the hospital, because of the dizzy spells I've been having. She says they'll probably admit me if they can't figure it out.
I'm not overly worried, as I know that can exacerbate things. I hate hospitals though, but I think I'll be able to survive if it comes to that. Just give me my notebooks, MP3 player, and change the TV to Comedy Central so I don't miss Scrubs. Hopefully, give me a remote too so I can change it when I think Law and Order may be on.

Well, that's all for now. I should be asleep now, but it's been even harder for me to sleep since this has started.

Day of Silence

2008-04-25T12:14:23Z

I was going to participate. But then, I thought about it. I really thought about it. The only thing that I could think is: Well, isn't that what they'd want me to do?
They'd love a day where it seemed like we just didn't exist. And that's bullshit.

We've got our voice, and as much courage as it takes to not speak, it takes even more to speak.

I refuse to give up my voice, to give them a free day where they can pretend that we don't exist.

Damn it, we're here, we're queer, and we're proud!

And that's all I really have to say about that.

99luftbalons @ 2008-04-15T07:17:00

2008-04-15T11:51:08Z

... When I call the men that were in the Corps of Discovery real men. Some people just don't get what they actually did and find history boring. Some people actually decide to try and experience it themselves. Personally, I've always wanted to experience it, and the article that I just mentioned only makes me want to more.

Hey, it happened again!

2008-04-07T01:56:17Z

I have gotten another good idea from a dream, with a much darker theme (you know, things like insanity, murder, rape, that kind of thing.) I'm not going to share it or anything though, 'cause I don't trust most people and I don't like sharing my ideas. I've already had ideas and the like stolen from me, thank-you-very-much, and since they normally have either been posted online and I have no records of my post or I've told them to someone, I don't really have proof that they were mine. But never mind that. I think I'm on to something with this one.

Ever had a weird dream...

2008-04-05T19:49:41Z

... That was also a cool dream? I did last night, and I am currently writing it down, because I plan to make a story out of this. I normally have problems coming up with original ideas (which is why you see a lot of fan-fiction form me,) and not enough good original ones. Do you think I had the dream because of the music I was listening to when I went to sleep? Oh well, never mind that.

Anyways, got any good names for me to use? (And not overdone names, please :D.)

Oh. My. God.

2008-04-05T07:33:04Z

All I have left to do is beat the final boss on FFX. I can't beat it yet, but I will, and the boss is so awesome that I don't mind watching it kill my characters over and over again. Also, while you battle it, a song by Rammstein plays. I'm probably going to do it tomorrow though, my eyes hurt right now.

Do you remember...

2008-04-03T06:46:19Z

Yu-Gi-Oh's infinitely expanding hair? Did you think that he had the biggest hair ever? You were wrong. I was battling Seymour for the third time, and I swear to god at least half of that huge-ass weird machine is growing out of this head like hair. I mean, really. It looks like Yugi has a buzz cut compared to this.
Just thought I should inform people on the subject.

Nothing But Flowers;

2008-04-02T07:55:45Z

Jessica is still over, ha. She'll probably be gone later today. Ive been playing FFX again; I swear to god that game is fucking with my head. I love the game, though. It's awesome, good storyline (though so far I've found the part where Rikku became a guardian lacking in reason,) and intriguing characters. Auron is definitely my favorite character, though the others are awesome too. I'm about to go try to find out how you're supposed to defeat Anima and then Seymour, 'cause it's a bitch doing it and I can't remember how I did it last time. I'm thinking that instead I might write some more drabbles/short stories about Lewis and Clark, and completely forget about the little project that I have to have drafted about them until Friday. Maybe I could work on that Beckington story instead, though I'm not quite sure where I'm going to bring it. Or I could forget about both of those ideas and write something involving Auron and Braska. I think, though, that I should definitely get some cheesecake. I could read that nice new book that I got on pirates...

We caught a rattlesnake, now we've got something for dinner.

2008-03-30T20:56:35Z

We got it, we got it.

Yeah, my friend Jessica is coming over. I'm pretty sure she has a LiveJournal, but she never uses it that I know of so... Well, I'm likely going to force her into watching at least one of the Pirates movies, and I'm going to force feed her mind Lewis/Clark and Beckington. Sounds like fun, eh? And... Maybe I'll watch Clerks or Clerks II until she gets here. I watched Jay and Silent Bob Strike Back last night, so I'm not going to watch it right now. Well, I might. Those chicks looked pretty hot in those tight suits. The part where Silent Bob was making the kissy face at Justice and Jay was all like, "Hey, get off my cool-aid," was pretty funny.

Wow, I really need to get a life. XD

...

2008-03-30T19:14:58Z

Funny thing, I usually have something to say when I post, but I'm basically posting for no reason. And I'm listening to Talking Heads, as I always seem to be doing while posting. Wow, I listen to them a lot now. I was thinking maybe I'd try to go over to my friends house, but I think I might watch the fires Pirates of the Caribbean movie again instead. I'm probably going to go read some Oblivion fan-fiction, and go write some Beckington as to get used to the style. My house is rather boring at the moment, and... Maybe I should go on Gaia. It just won't be the same as it used to be, but I could try. I think I'll try to get a hold off someone on Myspace, see if they want to come over.

Mostly movie ramblings and a new fanfic.

2008-03-30T07:07:55Z

Watched Pirates of the Caribbean three again, the part where the Endeavor is sinking and Cutler Beckett is going down the steps has to be one of the best scenes I've ever seen in a movie. Also watched Little Miss Sunshine, and I absolutely love this movie. It's funny, sad, and so real. The uncle is definitely my favorite character. The scene where he's talking to his old boyfriend is both the saddest and best part of the movie, as I know what he was feeling. Just that devastated look on his face, at seeing him, and... Aah, never mind all that. Watched Spiderman too, it was pretty awesome. Posted a fairly short story to both beckington and norrington_love, so take your pick as to where you wish to read and comment on it if you're going to.

Not much has changed...

2008-03-28T23:17:38Z

... Since yesterday, but I feel obliged to post. Things are well, and my dad is sober again. (Little quick overview: Me, my mom, and my brother left to live with my grandparents about a year ago, 'cause we were tired of his drinking and pot smoking.) Don't know if he'll stay sober, only time can tell us that. I'm rather bored, perhaps I should work on a school assignment? Nah, all next week is spring break, I can afford to wait a bit. Hell, with all of the research I've been doing on Lewis and Clark in the past week, making a seven day journal as if I were one of them or someone else on the expedition would be easy.

Well, that's about all.

Oh, wow.

2008-03-27T02:10:54Z

I think I've had this account for two years. I'm to lazy to check, really. This is the first website that I ever used this username on. I'll maybe post, if I can find some peoples to be cool with and stuff. That historical fiction usergroup looks promising.